Well, we are moving into the time of year that people tell me are the “gray days” – days of more clouds and less sun, until eventually (they say) every day is cloudy for about six months! (SIGH) I knew about this time before I moved here and the good news (for me, at least) is that the temperature still stays pleasant and I am still surrounded by ocean, mountains and nature – it’s just there is no sunshine. It is what I imagine living in Seattle to be like.
But beyond that, I’ve also had a season of “gray days” here in Ecuador. Nothing as bad as what I experienced on my “Bad and Ugly” day a while back, but just more of the challenges of living here piled on top of each other. Among other things, I am still in the throws of dealing with remedying my visa issue (and having to fire an incompetent attorney and hire a new one) and I’ve run into some issues with dealing with my builder on my house. Honestly, not anything different from things that people deal with in the states, but magnified here because of my isolation from friends and family and the day to day things that just make living life here more of a challenge.
I honestly gave up a long time ago that elusive expectation of reaching a “happy place” in life that so many people spend so much time striving for (whether they consciously realize that is what they are doing or not). I know that life is a journey with ups and downs that are to be expected (and I’m not looking to find my life in this world anyway). I know that “this too shall pass” and “the sun will come out tomorrow.” And as I’ve said, I will have problems wherever I live, so if I’m going to have problems, I’d rather have them living on the beach!
I know all of that – and yet, I want to honestly present all sides of my life in Ecuador and most recently, for many reasons, my life has been a continual string of “gray days”…